Setahun sudah berlalu

Late great granny with Abg Amir

Hampir setahun pemergian arwah bak (me call him bak coz jawa sebut mbah, sbb rapat sgt ngan arwah, panggil bak je.. cucu yg lain panggil tok bak) Zaman kanak2 yg indah terselit kenangan bersama arwah bak. Rumah arwah kt sebelah je. Agak boring main kat umah, kami pindah main umah bak. Sblm naik sekolah menengah, umah arwah bak masih lagi umah papan.. seronoknye bila berlari2 lantai bergegar. Dah le umah tu tinggi.. (sbb tu arwah bak buat umah baru kat bawah.. takut cucu2 n cicit2nyer merobohkan rumah nye kot.. hehehe..)

Basikal tua adalah kenderaan rasmi arwah bak. Setiap kali arwah balik dari pekan. Me & other siblings lari mendapatnyer.. arwah akan belikan gula2 utk kami. Kalau arwah x pergi kemana2 di hujung minggu pasti kami akan ke rumah arwah utk mengepau ape yg ada. Kalo arwah buat air milo ke, kopi ke.. mesti pau sikit. Best x ada cucu mcm mummy ni?? Basikal tua juga lah basikal yg mami takot nak bawak. Dah le tinggi pastu kecik2 dulu pendek kena la kayuh senget bwh palang. Lagipun mummy masa kecik2 sgt baik ma... org tua x bagi main mummy x main la.. (except for main cicak.. hehehe.. mak aku x tau projek pembedahan cicak tu.. kalo x mampus aku di lipatnyer..lagipun tu experimen, boleh di terima kan encik hisham.. heheheh)

Mlm2 pegi mengaji kat umah arwah.. selalunye bile balik mummy wat lari pecut 100m . Ye ar takot beb dah le dkt hutan, gelap pulak tu.. walaupun sekangkang babon, kita kena selamatkan diri beb... Yg paling mummy ingat ialah Pak long la cuba nak menakut2 kn mummy ngan mak lang. Ada ke patot buat hantu kat pokok. Mummy x de ar panik sgt time tu sbb dah terdgr2 diorg nye komplot. Mak lang la yg menangis x tentu hala. Lagipun mummy dah nampak tali kt pokok tu.. Hampess nye pak long.

Time sekolah mummy x baper rajin tido kt umah arwah. Sbb kena bangun pagi2 nak bersiap. Sbb arwah selalu kejut awal2. Kalo kt umah sendiri x der hal. Sbb tu mummy suka tido ujung2 minggu & cuti skola je.. Kenkadang saje2 melepak. Tgk tv ke.. tido ke... kat umah arwah aman damai sket.. x de gangguan. Arwah pun tinggal sensorang je...

Pemergian arwah betol2 mummy terasa sedih. Balik kampung skang ni pun sedikit sayu bila pandang umah arwah. Apa nak buat. Takdirnya arwah pergi pada bulan June yg sinonim ngan samputan hari bapa.. Bila pak busu citer masa arwah nak pergi tu sedih sgt. Arwah mintak pak busu bacakan surah Yasin, dia dah nak pergi dah ni..Selalu mummy ingatkn dalam hati supaya hargai org sekeliling kita. Sayangilah sementara masih ada. Jgn sampai sesal di kemudian hari...

Pilihan

Mummy dah meletakkan target yg dlm bln June ni mummy mesti dpt kerja. Alhamdulillah.. target itu dah tercapai.. tp syg nya pilihan yg mummy buat adalah kurang tepat.. Tp bila mummy fikirkan semula salah mummy ke?? sedangkn I'm willing to learn & ready to accept any challenges. "Hai hati, kuat lah engkau!!. Oh semangat, jgn lah ko lemah!! Ya.. Allah kuatkn lah hati & semangatku" Itulah yg mummy sentiasa ulang dlm hati skang ni..
Kenapa?
Last week mummy dah berhenti keje kt KKCKlg. Sbb dah dpt offer dr CSM hardware as inventory clerk. Memandangkn tpt kejenya x jauh n gaji nye ok.. jd mummy accept lah. Masa interview dia kata sanggup nak ajar system UBS n inventory pd mummy. Itu yg buat mummy sanggup nak keje kt situ. Kalo nak belajar UBS sendiri confirm RM500++. Nak belajar lg satu hal. nak cari masa belajar pun satu hal jugak. Tp actually UBS system tu x de la susah sgt pun. key in je ape2 yg patut.. Yg menyedihkn mummy ialah 2 hr keje kt situ dia dah buang mummy. Hairan sungguh.... dia kata mummy x leh catch up cepat ngan brg2 kt situ. aje gile.. brg 500 jenis mcm nak kena ingat 2 hari.. pulak tu dlm DO nama lain, dlm system nama lain..
Yg buat mummy terkilan amat ialah mummy dah berenti dr KKCKlg tu.. sekurang2nye kt situ ada gj jugak.
Tak pe lah... hikmah di sebalik kejadian tu ialah mummy x perlu menyediakan alasan x pg keje semalam utk pg interview di Kementerian Penerangan, Komunikasi & Kebudayaan. Harap2 dpt lah.. cuma bila tu x pasti lah...

Kawan mummy (Cik Noraza) yg tlg mummy dptkn interview kt Kementerian Penerangan tu cuti pulak, sabtu ni (6.6.09) dia buat kenduri kawen. Nak balik kg pun x leh sbb mak long (my sis in-law) currently admitted in PPUM. Nak amputate kaki this Friday. Harap2 mak long strong .. KUATKAN HATI & SEMANGAT. Ujian Allah sentiasa ada hikmahnya...

Mak long with her student

Hati Serapuh Kaca...............

Jangankan lelaki biasa, nabi pun terasa sunyi tanpa wanita. Tanpa mereka, fikiran dan perasaan lelaki akan resah. Masih mencari walau ada segalanya.

Apa yang tiada dalam syurga?

Namun adam tetap rindukan hawa. Dijadikan wanita daripada tulang rusuk yang bengkok. Untuk diluruskan oleh lelaki. Tetapi seandainya lelaki itu sendiri tidak lurus, Mana mungkin kayu yang bengkok menghasilkan bayang yang lurus.

Luruskanlah wanita dengan jalan yang ditunjuk oleh Allah, kerana mereka diciptakan sebegitu rupa oleh Allah. Didiklah mereka dengan panduan darinya.

Jangan cuba menjinakkan mereka dengan harta, kerana nantinya mereka semakin liar. Janganlah hiburkan mereka dengan kecantikan, kerana nantinya mereka akan semakin derita.

Kenalkan mereka kepada Allah, zat yang kekal. Di situlah punca kekuatan dunia.

Akal senipis rambutnya, tebalkanlah ia dengan ilmu. Hati serapuh kaca, kuatkanlah ia dengan iman... Perasaan selembut sutera, hiasilah ia dengan akhlak.

Suburkanlah ia kerana dari situlah nantinya... Mereka akan lihat nilaian dan keadilan Rab... Bisikkan ke telinga mereka bahawa kelembutan bukan suatu kelemahan.. Ia bukan diskriminasi Allah... sebaliknya di situlah kasih dan sayang Allah...

Wanita yang lupa hakikat kejadiannya... Pasti tidak akan terhibur, dan tidak akan menghiburkan... Tanpa iman, ilmu dan akhlak..mereka tidak akan lurus... Bahkan akan semakin membengkok... Itulah hakikatnya andai wanita tidak kenal Rabbnya...

Bila wanita menjadi derhaka... pasti dunia lelaki akan menjadi huru hara.... Lelaki pula janganlah mengharapkan ketaatan semata-mata... Tapi binalah kepimpinan... Pastikan sebelum wanita menuju ilahi, pimpinlah diri kepadanya...

Jinakkan diri kepada allah... Nescaya akan jinaklah segala-galanya di bawah pimpinanmu... Janganlah mengharapkan isteri semulia Fatimah Az-Zahra' Seandainya dirimu tidak sehebat saidina Ali karamallahuwajhah.

Just A little bit...

" When I was younger and still single, my grandma used to tell me that there is no point chasing the paper dream and get good qualifications since at the end of the day, we might just end up in the kitchen.I used to opposed so much to that notion, telling her that times have now changed and woman can be more successful and they do not have to give in to the norm; that woman are solely responsible for what happens in the kitchen. She’ll always retort back at me, asking me to just wait and see.If you look at it, hardly will you hear that men are actually lifting up their “dainty” fingers to help their mothers, sisters or grandmothers with the housework. It’s probably inculcated in our culture that the women are those who are responsible for all the household duties and that the men’s sole duty is to go out there and just earn the cash back home.Probably it might work in an era where woman has little or no education that they end up being a housewife once they step into marriage.

But in these modern days where woman has equal opportunity to gain the knowledge and achieve an astounding career profile, the norm has to change.I’m not exactly fighting for woman’s rights but just hoping that the man could practice more empathy to women who are equally tired working in the day and should deserve ample rest when they comes home in the evening.From my daily observation and stories that I heard from friends and colleagues, men, when they are home, would probably just place their butt on the sofa or on the bed and would then called out to the wife for coffee, tea and so on. While a woman comes home, has no time to rest but to clean the house, do the laundry, cook, wash the dishes and so on.Even as I was growing up, cleaning the house on the weekend has somehow become my duties whereas my brothers are enjoying their sleep till noon and just wake up to eat their meals and laze around.
I was always grumbling and nagging to my brothers about how bad they are behaving by refusing to help me, who are also working my ass off in the office during the weekdays.Don’t I deserve to laze around just as much as they do that somehow me being a woman, I’m denied of that privileges?I’m not saying that my mom’s way of bringing us up is wrong but I just feel that the old culture should not be practiced any further because it will only end up being understood that a woman’s job is to clean, cook and wash for them.It doesn’t work this way anymore!

Let’s take an example of a married couple. Both husband and wife are working. Both have to wake up early in the morning to prepare for work. Both equally physically and mentally tired from the day’s event. Both would love to have the rest at home.But when both returns home, men thinks that they have the higher rights to rest since they didn’t bother to help out anyway. While a women returns, still have to sweep the house because the husband refuse to help, has to mop the house because the husband refuse to help, has to do the laundry because the husband refuse to help, has to prepare dinner because the husband refuse to help and the list will go on forever.Many would just take the easy way out by employing a maid but what if you do not have the means to have a maid? So the wife automatically becomes the maid?I thought marriage is about love and going through all the ups and downs TOGETHER!Yet the man, arrogant as some men could be, thought they have the every right to scold the wife for not having the house as clean, the laundry or the dinner on time!You know, I totally despise such man.Go move your own bloody limbs to get it done!

Many cases of men having affairs, their reason could be as simple as the wife is always in the mess and never attractive enough. Oh well, try to work in the morning and continue with all the work in the evening! Do you think that, that is what a woman look forward too when they decide to get married to you?If you love your woman so much, how did you close both eyes and see the person that you so called love to be so drained out physically and emotionally from working too hard?Is that really love or just pure laziness?A man should really wake up and open their eyes wide and stop being so prejudiced!And some men do grumble so much when the wife is pregnant and they are always moody, craving and so forth.

So hubby and I have a healthy debate about pregnant woman and their mood swings.Hubby said that it’s all in the mind and the woman involved should learn how to control the outburst of emotions.My point, I think that is being so self-centered! (sorry hubs!)True a woman should learn how to control and not behaving in such over the top manner and use pregnancy as an excuse but a man should be more understanding and it’s not just all about mind over body issue.There are hormones, lethargy and so much more. It’s not easy carrying that extra load with her for 9 months or more. What does a man know? At most they are only carrying their beer belly around don’t they? Women are instead not only feeling the heaviness of being pregnant but they are also easily tired and ache all over. Why don’t men try to tie a 3 KG dumbbell on their tummy for 9 whole months and feel what a woman feel?Would they?

Men’s mentalities are simple. Go to work, come back home and make sure they pay the bills while they expect more from the woman.I mean take a look at today’s situation. Woman does work and pay the bills too. So why should women be liable for the household and be blamed for the mood swings?Men are not being responsible by not taking good care of their wife as they blatantly promised in front of many others when they were solemnized.They might as well point it out and say that I marry this woman, not only will she become my maid for free but she has also has to find the energy to satisfy me in bed, cook for me, do all my laundry, ensure my house is clean, bear me childrens and they should never nagged or complaint about all the hardship and heart ache that they have to go through but to just listen to me with no question asked.
I bet many women will choose to be single if they were to hear those words. HAHAHA! "

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Ini adalah petikan notes from my FB friend. Saja nak kongsikan bersama.. Mummy nak tulis @ elobrate pjg cam dia x der idea... next entry mungkin leh story about MARRIAGE ..
p/s: Fara.. I curi u punyer notes ekk.. hehehe...thanks a lots... LOL!!

Dare To Fail

Kegagalan,

Bukanlah beerti anda seorang yang gagal
Ia hanyalah beerti anda masih BELUM BERJAYA lagi...

Kegagalan,

Bukanlah beerti anda tidak mencapai apa-apa.

Ia sebenarnya beerti anda sudah mempelajari sesuatu
Kegagalan,
Bukanlah beerti anda seorang bodoh kerana mencuba
Ia beererti anda BERANI,anda BERHATI TEGUH,BERSEMANGAT WAJA- berbanggalah dengan diri anda...

Kegagalan,

Bukanlah bermakna anda tidak akan berjaya
Ia hanyalah bermakna anda memerlukan sedikit lagi masa

Kegagalan,
Bukanlah bermakna anda kecundang
Ia hanyalah bermakna anda berpeluang untuk bermula semula
Mencuba sesuatu yang baru

Kegagalan,
Bukanlah bermakna Tuhan telah meninggalkan anda
Ia hanyalah bermakna Yang Maha Kuasa mempunyai rancangan yang lebih baik
Jadi benarlah,
Kegagalan itu tidak pernah muktamad

Tagged!! First Born

Mami jumpa tag ni.. cam seronok jer nak menjawab soalan nie.. hihihi lagi pon daddy dah borinx ngan entry mummy...

Tag Firstborn

1. WAS YOUR FIRST PREGNANCY PLANNED?
- Yes...

2. WERE YOU MARRIED AT THE TIME?
- Of course la... nak kena tembak aper??

3. WHAT WERE YOUR REACTIONS?
- Gembira x terkata

4. WAS ABORTION AN OPTION FOR YOU?
- Never in my life

5. HOW OLD WERE YOU?
- Skang 28 Taon ma...

6. HOW DID YOU FIND OUT YOU WERE PREGNANT?
- Cek urine test.. after 2 weeks x datang period

7. WHO DID YOU TELL FIRST?
- Daddy la yg punya angkara.. hehehe

8. DID YOU WANT TO FIND OUT THE SEX?
- nak tahu tp sentiasa x dpt tahu..

9. DUE DATE?
- 15/9/2007

10. DID YOU HAVE MORNING SICKNESS?
- Almost every day.. tp, I overcome it with eating fruits

11. WHAT DID YOU CRAVE?
- Roti Jala.. mc D ..

12. WHO/WHAT IRRITATED YOU THE MOST?
- My chinese boss

13. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CHILD SEX?
- Boy

14. DID YOU WISH YOU HAD THE OPPOSITE SEX OF WHAT YOU WERE GETTING?
- that time x sure jantina aper.. aper2 janji sihat

15. HOW MANY POUNDS DID YOU GAIN THROUGHOUT THE PREGNANCY?
- about 10kgs

16. DID YOU HAVE A BABY SHOWER?
- hmmm... belanje everyone KFC je kot.. he he he

17. WAS IT A SURPRISE OR DID YOU KNOW?
- Suprise gak..

18. DID YOU HAVE ANY COMPLICATIONS DURING YOUR PREGNANCY?
- High BP.. tu pasal kena induce

19. WHERE DID YOU GIVE BIRTH?
- PPUM

20. HOW MANY HOURS WERE YOU IN LABOR?
- office hour 9am to 5pm hehehe buleh dak camtu...

21. WHO DROVE YOU TO THE HOSPITAL?
- Daddy arr

22. WHO WATCHED YOU GIVE BIRTH?
- mummy ingat semua doktor kat PPUM coz mummy x larat nak meneran.. meneran saje 1 jam ekk

23. WAS IT NATURAL OR C-SECTION?
- almost kena vacuum.. tapi bile tengok vacuum tu punya besar.. mummy push kuat2

24. DID YOU TAKE MEDICINE TO EASE THE PAIN?
- x langsong.. gas pun mummy x mampu nak sedut .. sakit giler ooo

27. HOW MUCH DID YOUR CHILD WEIGH?
- 2.45 kg

28. WHEN WAS YOUR CHILD ACTUALLY BORN ?
- 6/9/2007

30. WHAT DID YOU NAME HIM/HER?
- Tuah Amir Harith

31. HOW OLD IS YOUR FIRST BORN TODAY?
- 20 months

jadi.. ngan bangganyer mummy tag..
1) Puan Nida
2) Puan Wanie.. biler dah kuar baby nanti
3) Puan-puan yg membace blog ini..

Sini.. Terkini

Abg Amir sekarang sgt teruja ngan dia niee...

Biler mummy tanya camaner ultraman fire?? dia ngan eksennya menggayakan aksi tersebut.. Terlalu banyak tgk TV ke?? Ada org kata anak dia susah sgt nak tgk TV. susah fokus sesuatu perkara. Well, ada gak kata tgk TV terlalu byk pun leh menyumbang kepada anak yg hyperaktif. Setakat ni aper yg mummy tgk Abg Amir 50-50.. kenkadang terlalu fokus kepada benda2 yg dia minat.. tapi kalo x minat jangan harappp....

Cuma Abg Amir suka sangat merengek skang ni.. kurang perhatian dari mummy ke?? Cian kan dia.Mummy pun kena take care Baby Tsara. She is entering 3 months. Dah mula mengiring2. Harap2 cepat meniarap. Hmmm.. Daddy pulak keep on citer pasal the 3rd one.. Smlm mummy hangin dah.. Sorry daddy .. in my mind I've to think a lot of things, Especially about my job. Harap sangat dpt keje yg tetap. Pastu fokus tentang rumah.. Then boleh la fikir tentang having another kid. Tapi biler memikirkan tentang kepayahan & kesakitan masa mengandung & bersalin... make me think twice.... Cukuplah buat masa nie...